Tuesday, May 29, 2007

My love, forever.

KL was awesome. :)

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The picture was taken at my uncle's house, where we stayed [it's two houses connected by a swimming pool, zowee!].

I think I have never enjoyed a trip to KL as much as I had this time. Okay, admittedly the kids drove me a l-i-t-t-l-e crazy but they were still so adorable and I did have fun. Joking around with them, laughing with them and what nots. I've got videos but we'll see if I get around to uploading them.

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The KL Eye was okay. It got a little boring because it was 8 rounds, for God's sake. But at least Qusya was there. The picture above is us with two of my uncle's four kids. Then we tried taking the KTM for the first time ever all the way to Klang, haha. The kids were pretty sporting about it, [although they did fall asleep for the most part].

That was on Saturday. On Sunday we went to KLCC then Mid Valley again then my aunt took us out for tea at her place. After that we met up with my other relatives and yay, got to meet Azmyr after what - 5 years? They're going to Pulau Redang this hols! My mom is still unsure if we're joining them.

T'was fun. Gotta say I'm kinda starting to like KL now. I think what always deterred me in the past was the long rides [a no-no for someone with motion sickness] but now rides within KL don't seem as bad. And I love the messiness of the place. Singapore seems too orderly. KL seems... different, somehow.

But like my aunt said, security there's a bitch. Which was scary because my aunt chided my mom for putting her bag on the seat beside her and I heard that now, thefts occur even when your bag is on your lap! Very-the-daring thieves, heh.

Results wise - I suppose I did better than I expected. Not good enough but better than expected. Headaches and nuances whatsoever will be kept a secret, for now.

Friday, May 25, 2007

Kiss me, smile for me.

Whoot!

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Hello world, I'm in KL!

I think I like it here, everything seems so different and more exciting, somehow. Although we haven't been going out much, tomorrow we're going on the huge ferris wheel, so yay! The kids are [surprisingly] lovable, and so innocent that it's so amusing.

I think I'm going to have alot to do when I get back to Singapore, regarding PB but hopefully everything will pull through for that. Over the course of the next few months, I'll be going overseas alot more. Initially I was reluctant to even come to KL but now I love it here. :D

Yesterday we shopped at Masjid India in the morning [where I snapped the picture above] and in the afternoon went over to MidValley. I finally got my MAC lipbalm. :) It's so much fun browsing with my mom, trying to "irritate" rude salesgirls along the way and stuff, HAHA. Can't believe how sporting my mom is.

Oh! And I've finished one of my library books! I started with the Cathy Kelly one, of course. It's hard to deny the urge to read a novel by one of your favourite authors. :D

Technically I have 2 more KL trips, 1 Jakarta trip and a potential trip to Morocco coming up. Seems like alot, doesn't it? I don't have to go for all that, but my mom's free and she might want company. Let's just hope the trip to Morocco happens. :)

Results will be out tomorrow. I'm not expecting much because I know I didn't do too well especially for that political science module - but - you know how even though you don't expect much, you can't suppress that faint glimmer of hope that somehow it will all still be okay? Yeppers. So, let's pray it'll be okay.

I wonder if I'll ever see you again.

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

All my bags have been packed,

I'm off!

See you in a few days, dolls.

Saturday, May 19, 2007

I just have to say that Meghna, sometimes you're so lovable and sweet, :).

And the trip to France? Yes, yes, yes. We can do it together. And Jannah! French next semester, perhaps? Haha :)

The sweet truth.

Someday someone will walk into your life
and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else.


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Hellooo nurse!

So today we went to the museum. God, I can't remember the last time I went there, probably for some school excursion or something, haha. Anyway we had a great time, as usual. Met him after his gym session [haha! :D], then we walked over. The exhibition this time around was - Under the Crescent Moon, which shows the "rich cultural heritage" of the Arab world.

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Initially we got distracted by this really cool thing near the entrance which captures your image onto a larger screen, albeit a grainy one. He was pretty smart at capturing the shot of us facing the camera but I like this one better. Haha =D Oh and I liked the "future projections" of what Singapore would be like, once everything was built - what with the IR, the bridge at Marina Bay and such. Hopefully it will look as pretty as all it's projected to be.

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We couldn't take pictures at the exhibition itself. But I remember there was one section which showed the "uglier" side of the cultures. Also there was a separate room which had somewhat disturbing images - if I'm not wrong, it reflected the civil war in Lebanon and the images were pretty distressing. Distressing because I hate to think that people are actually living like that.

The one exhibit that moved me the most was the one which showed young boys playing with one another, which might seem harmless except that they were pretending to kill one another, learning how to slaughter each other. It was really gory. They were just playing but the fact that they were kids really made me cringe. And not only that but there was a video just above that one which showed a single solitary, elderly woman [presumably their mother] just staring straight ahead, looking as though she had the weight of the world on her shoulders.

So yeah, pretty deep stuff.

All that aside, after that, we had our mini-tea [from Sakura, thank you very much].

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Then on to view the "illusion" outside Robinsons...

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... before going over to Clarke Quay. It's really gorgeous at night. Going there happened because one of the pictures at the museum showed the night life there which looked really beautiful and vibrant so we decided to head over and capture shots for real. He took most of the pictures cause he's got much steadier hands than me, haha. I've decided not to put them all up for fear of clogging up the page, haha!

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So yepp, a great day, well spent. :) I think I've become a museum convert. I can't wait for the next exhibition! Maybe we could all go together next time?

[Phew, long entry, am shagged!]

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Heart of a gladiator.

Can't you see baby, this is perfection?

Last night when we went to pick my sister up from the "scary part", I was really hyper. Earlier last night, I was showing my mom all the bellydance moves and making her try it out and even trying to convince her that Shakira is hot.

So the entire way to the "scary part" and back, we were singing loudly - Latino! Africano! Asiatico! Americano! Tu Dios te esta mirando! - and were having so much fun.

Then the neighbour's dog barked really loudly at us and the three of us screamed, hahaha.

I know we must have been really annoying but it was so rowdy and exhilirating :D.

Hey Julie,

Sometimes I catch myself staring into space
Counting down the hours 'til I get to see your face


I'm in a feel-good mood. You know, I wish I could cook. I want to be one of those people who can salvage even the nastiest of nasty [haha] instead of being among the few who create the nasty.

Anyway I cleared my table. It's alot cleaner now! Doesn't look like the messy picture you see on your right anymore! Hahaha, but that's just cause I stuffed loads of items into the drawers.

You know, I really hope to visit France. :) Maybe in a year's time? Who knows - that dream might just come true.

And because I'm just bored...

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Sometimes, it's a little scary seeing so many people visit my blog or to see who exactly visits my blog, because I wonder what they think, haha.

So okay, I went for Belly Dance just now. The instructor said I did really well! I'm glowing right now, yay! Although I think some of my movements seemed a little stiff and looked rather strange in the mirror, hahaha.

I've been pigging out on chocolate ice-cream to no end. My mom just warned me that if I don't cut down, I'm going to be even fatter. One day, I swear, I'm going to explode, haha.

Pop goes Shahira.

Hahaha.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

You fucked up, girl. There's no use prettying it up. When it's as... ugly as all that. When you're as ugly as all that.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Call me a safe bet,

I'm betting I'm not.

When friends don't pull through, I guess that's where family comes in. =)

Lulu and Meghna might consider joining Amore, so yay! Amore should pay me, okay. Over the years, I've introduced so many girls I've lost track of. Amore = fun, fitness, friends!

And I just spoke to my mom and sister over a hearty meal of macaroni about it. [Haha] I figure they're right - people who are continually envious of you can't be your close friends. Because envy is usually laced in spite.

I don't get it with the jealousy bit. It's not as though my life is so brilliant. Instead of being happy for me or supporting me, must you put me down? Can't you simply realize you're happier off being content with your own life? There's no need to compete; not with a friend, not with me.

I'm glad that you can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget.

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Let Me Love You - Mario.




Everywhere you go they stop and stare,
Cause you're bad and it shows.
From your head to your toes,
Out of control,
Baby you know.




I don't know what possessed me to go online and search for this video all over again. And I know this is kinda an old song, but I love it. I like the part towards the end when he dances with her, but I can't help but go, "Hands off, bitch!" Haha :D

Ooh, we just watched Cages on Hallmark. That movie was really moving, and I like the photography. Kay, I don't know the correct term for it, but I like the images and all. It's a local production and it was impressive.

Happy Mother's Day, all!

I'm watching you watch over me,
I've got the greatest view from here.


We went to Secret Recipe! Just us four ladies. The day started out bright and early with a trip to the cemetary [all the way to Jalan Bahar and I drove!]. After that, we went for a short drive to Changi Coast with my grandfather. I reckon he just wanted to get out of the house and I was more than welcome to oblige because it would, of course, mean that I'd get to drive again, and driving there is simple pimple compared to scary expressways with mean drivers and curving roads.

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We only had dessert there, we didn't get any of the main course. I had the Chocolate Banana cake which I had been craving for since forever. Mom had her Baked Cheesecake because the marble cake was all finished :(. Ana had Chocolate Indulgence and Noreen very cleverly decided to go for a Shepard's Pie because she knew we'd have an overdose of sweetness. True enough, the Shepard's Pie was the favourite among us. Haha :)

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Hope mom had a good time because she really deserves it. She's the strongest, kindest woman I know and I'm lucky if I can be just like her when I grow up.

You know, I think it's a sign that today, on Mother's Day, I got my period. Hahaha.

Saturday, May 12, 2007

YA.

Tomorrow is Shah's birthday and he has field camp. :( But whatever it is, hope he's happy. Kay that might be wishful thinking, so I just hope he's... content. He taught me the importance and depth to that word.

Apart from everything, I think with my period looming, I have all these emotions raging underneath me so I'm in a mixed up personal state. I feel like I need to write things out, to clear my thoughts. Feels like forever since I last wrote a deep entry, heh.

But now's not the time.

Like, wow. Time sure flies, doesn't it? Sometimes I wonder what the future will bring. When I do, I always wonder what will happen if I cross paths with someone from my past - what we will remember, how we will pick up from there. I wonder if my life now will seem like it's from another life. That term was used in a movie I caught on Hallmark recently: when the girl was reluctant to give up her baby for adoption, the lady simply told her that in a few years, it'll all seem as though it's from someone else's life. Don't some things feel that way at times? It's so easy to get swept away with the tide. Or when you visit an old place or hear an old song, doesn't it suddenly bring back all the memories? As the memories flood back, so does the awkwardness: you don't know quite how to act anymore. My mom recently told me certain tales about her youth that I'm having trouble [but also fun] connecting to the "conservative" lady I know, haha. It makes me wonder whether all these experiences and escapades of mine will be long gone when I'm older.

K whatever, told you this isn't a night for clear thoughts.

In darkness she is all I see.

But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would bring me back to you,
That someday it would bring me back to you.

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This morning I mentioned wanting to change my bedsheets because it has been forever since I had fresh sheets and my mom finally agreed. When she pulled any ol' combination out of the wadrobe this morning, I remember whining that it probably wouldn't match but I think it turned out okay, don't you? Ah but I think I'm getting my period soon and I'll be damned if they're stained. :P

Kay. Today I went for the ABT lesson and it nearly killed me! I emerged from the class with almost every part of my body aching, muscles I never knew I had, burning. Haha!

Didn't go for the Hip Hop lesson in the end as I was too tired. I don't think I've been losing much weight but I sure as hell have been discovering new muscle groups! :D Caught the movie 28 Weeks Later, which is pretty moving. Scary but moving. :) I love stories with alot of jumbled up plots, especially those with a twist at the end, like Saw 2. If you're that kind, then consider watching Fracture. Some movies are simply brilliant.

Then again, sometimes I just love watching love stories with cliched happy endings just for the hell of it. I also love watching scary movies which scare the hell out of me [although I'll do research on it later and get frustrated if I don't understand the particular ghost or what-nots involved]. And I love action flicks, aka Die Hard 4. Can't miss that one either!

I think I'm a movie freak, muahaha.

Am getting my tuition pay soon, yo! I'm planning to start saving up for that trip. Want it to happen, really I do. I want it to happen like I've never wanted anything to happen. :)

Friday, May 11, 2007

BOO!

Today I did kickboxing and man, I didn't realize how much I missed it. Kay, confession time: When the class was about to start, I was like, "Uh oh," referring to my previous experiences at kb where it really [and I mean really] tired you out. But when it did start, I realized how much I enjoyed the shouts from the other women and the aggresiveness on a whole. I think the instructor just now was really good too. There was once during the abs-conditioning bit where he really pushed me and he went, "Can you feel it?" To which I replied, "Uh..yeah," [cause by that time I was trying to persevere through burning abs] and I think he was amused because he kept asking, heh. And his words [some of encouragement] throughout the workout were pretty funny and I especially loved the way he actually went through technique.

The funniest and most amazing thing happened when I walked into Amore though. I bumped into the girl I was tutoring! We started talking and she mentioned her dad's in the travel agency business and I mentioned my mom was looking for one and it turns out that the previous agency they had was the one my mom always frequented! Not only that but I think her dad also does something with another organization which always holds events at where my dad is currently working. Now is that a coincidence or is that a coincidence? Haha.

So tomorrow we're going for Hip Hop together. Hurray, now I have a friend. :)

Anyway I just came home. Met Hasyim after work then we headed to the beach for dinner and a stroll. Made friends with a cat along the way too, haha.

I am, exhausted.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

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So today we went to Parkway with the little Mister. The pictures were taken at Banquet when my aunt and mom decided, yet again, that they wanted ice kacang, haha. Later on, we bought ingredients for the pizza I was planning to make. Ultimately, the pizza turned out just okay. I mean, how ok could it be with just the simplest of simple ingredients? I suppose it was a nice dish to whip up for a change. Especially for non-chefs like me. :D

I feel lethargic. I think it's because day in and day out, I'm free. Well not so free because my sister and I are helping my mom run errands and she is just a bundle of energy. She goes out in the morning, comes home to pray Dzohor then goes out again. Sometimes it's hard just keeping up with her! But it's all good because it keeps me somewhat busy.

Also the entire business with the holidays is driving me crazy. First, a KL trip. Then, a Jakarta trip. Then now, maybe Bali. Or as of 5 minutes ago, maybe NOT Bali. Then maybe Jakarta again. It sucks getting your hopes up, because personally, I'm okay with jet-setting anywhere. I can pack in a flash and be all ready to go. *gives pointed look to Mom* At least Morocco is 75% confirmed. Heh. :P

This entry is written in a lousy mood because I feel like I'm getting fatter and fatter until one day, I'm really going to pop! Oh nevermind, tomorrow I'll work up enough will-power for a run. I'm going to work my ass off, literally.

And my my, the princesses at Number 33 have been keeping their paws busy, haven't they?

I'm here if you want me,
I'm yours, you can hold me.

Wednesday, May 9, 2007

Lovely.

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Last night we ate dinner on the terrace.

So hey, check this blog out. It's really cool. ;)

Hey, they forced me to create one for them. I just couldn't say no. Hahaha :D.

Oh we tried NTUC but they didn't have the goodies, and Kandahar St's postphoned until the rain stops.

Tuesday, May 8, 2007

I guess this time

it really is goodbye.

I have this sudden, really strong craving for pizza. I prefer pizza with the thin crust but am yet to try the new one at Pizza Hut. We just came back from Shop n Save where I wanted to get the instant kind [you just pop 'em into the oven] but I decided to try making my own instead. Ingredients couldn't be found there so tomorrow we might be heading over to NTUC or Giants to get them. Oh and tomorrow too, we might be going down to Kandahar to ask about the travel packages.

Busy day, tomorrow, huh? I like. :)

My my, today was my first attempt at Jazz. The instructor was hot! And I loved the way she was so energetic, like a breath of fresh air. Damn I probably sound gay but never [you] mind. She can lift her leg up really high...

I tried, mind you, I did. And I was pretty sure my leg was up high because I could really feel the stretch but when I peeked over my shoulder it didn't seem as high. Bleargh.

But not to worry! I won't be discouraged and tomorrow will be my first ever attempt at Pilates. Right back at ya, sugar!

And now I'm trying to convince Xq to pick it up again with me. :D

Monday, May 7, 2007

Of randomness

My hands they're small, I know,
but they're not yours,
they are my own and
I am never broken.


There's still a long way to go before we get to that "best friends" status, I think. When speaking to someone recently he mentioned something like he's lost his first love to another guy, but he doesn't want to lose her altogether. Which is why he's trying to make ammends to the friendship now. And as he quoted, from Spiderman 3 and from the gorgeous girl who tried-to-lay-one-on-him, the hardest thing for her to do now is to forgive herself.

On a different note, I think I've lost sight of alot of things about myself. Or I always take things for granted. Hell, I can't remember the last time I prayed. [Pardon the pun.] Well, okay, I can, but that's not my point. And that makes me very sad because I really don't want to get used to doing something that I initially didn't think was okay. For some things, it isn't a simple matter of being open-minded or accepting. Sometimes it's hard to maintain your stance.

But how do you know what's right anymore? It's not as though the world is simply in black and white anymore, more likely it's a spectrum of grays.

Then again, when I moan about all these, I'm reminded of a childhood fable that says something about how a prince was plucked out of his castle and exposed to the most sinful and supposedly enjoyable lifestyle filled with decadance and such but he still remained pure and upright without faltering because he knew who he was and his own standing. So if he could do it, so can I!

I used to think that it was a good thing that my mom was so strict on my dressing and curfews and stuff because if she wasn't, I'd probably go crazy; drunk on the freedom. Then I'd realize that there really isn't anything stopping me from doing the nasty. Just because my mom said so doesn't mean I can't rebel. It's my own decision to not do the nasty. Then I feel a little smug, a little happy of the fact that perhaps, it's just not ME to do all that. That maybe I'm not so bad, after all.

So maybe, just maybe the world isn't so bleak as to be a mere spectrum of grays. Maybe it might have some lightness and colour in it.

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So yesterday was Hasyim's birthday. Hope he had fun. :) It seems really sad - pathetic, even - that I actually vomitted after trying to surprise him, haha, but oh well. Makes for an unforgettable experience, I must say. We had an early dinner at Swensens at about 4pm but that was enough to last us until this morning. But you know, Swensens now has a menu for local cuisine which is unbelievably overpriced [in our opinion].

I am bored. I think I'll be going for Amore later, before the meeting. Maybe. It's time to get recharged and revived! :)

I like the picture above. I've taken to copyrighting my images because too many people have been stealing without crediting. Hmmph! I like the fact that I managed to crop the borders and I like the fact that the watermark looks embedded in the picture. :D

And I try, try try to be happy.

Saturday, May 5, 2007

I wish.

You wanna know why I look sad and lonely.
You wanna know why I can barely talk, well,
It's not your fault so let me say I'm sorry,
For making you the reason for my fall.

I wish that I could be like I was before.
I was ridin high but now I'm feelin so low.
I wish that you could make my world feel better,
And take away the hurt so I won't be so far gone.




Friday, May 4, 2007

Last Request.

I just want you to know something, is that alright?
Baby let's get closer, tonight.


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So yesterday we met up at Marina Square and watched Spiderman 3 there. Not a bad movie. And I still don't understand why everyone's crazy over Harry! I mean, yeah, he's cute but Pete's so much more lovable, haha.

Zibs was da lady that night. When we met her she was cutting and perming her hair because of a promotion at Monsoon and I must say, she looks great. Love the waves in her hair. After the movie, the others decided to get their eyebrows done and I helped XQ colour hers later on - a fact which I am very proud of, seeing how I have such unsteady hands! Luckily I didn't end up scribbling on her face, hehe.

Hasyim joined us for dinner at Sakura because he was in the area. Sakura rocks simply because it's both halal and it caters for vegetarians. :D Later, the rest went for dessert at this incredible place [I don't know how incredible it is because I haven't tried it but everyone insists it's that good] because they had 50% off after 10pm but I had to go home cause it was getting late and some of us still have curfewwss.

Grant my last request and just let me hold you,
don't shrug your shoulders,
Lay down beside me.

Wednesday, May 2, 2007

Bad to the bone.

On the day I was born, the nurses all gathered 'round
And they gazed in wide wonder, at the joy they had found.

The head nurse spoke up, and she said leave this one alone
She could tell right away, that I was bad to the bone.


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Ismail comes over to our house every morning. My mom just kidnapped him - she took him with her while running some errands, haha.

I hope Spiderman 3 doesn't have a sad ending. I mean, c'monn - sometimes you want to watch something simply for the entertainment factor, something which reignites your faith.

OH WAIT! The Hills have Eyes 2 is R21! And I can't believe I unknowingly watched it. Hahaha it's the goriest movie I have ever seen. And I remember while watching the movie, Hasyim commented that ratings are getting less and less censorious and we didn't realize it until much much later. No, there wasn't a sex scene but there was a horrible horrible rape scene and alot of bloodshed. But it's still a good movie so brace yourself and sneak in. ;)

Tuesday, May 1, 2007

Baby don't go.

We had lunch together at Bedok Corner today! I had delicious nasi ayam penyet and the four of us split a carrot cake. Fat-o-mania. Oh my mom goes crazy playing the thumb game - she'll put her thumb up after everyone else [I put my thumb up sloowwwllyyy] and why? [Because I'm ollldddd.] Sucha cheat. Sigh. Haha!

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Anyway, below are some random pictures which I've only just uploaded into the computer. Now that exams are over, I'm free as a bird so hurray! I tried understanding some online Photoshop tutorials but to no avail so umm yeah.

A dawn is breaking, a light shining through.
You're barely waking and I'm tangled up in you.


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Those were taken in the wee hours of the morning, before an exam. It's funny - I hate waking up early but when I do make the effort to, I am captivated by the pretty colours in the sky and I always tell myself that I have to wake up early again to see it but it never happens. Trust me, it never happens.

Ooh did I mention I cut my hair? It's really short now, around my ears. I've never been a fan of long hair, have I? Correction: I've never been a fan of waiting for my hair to grow out.

Tomorrow will be another busy day with the ladies! Spidey, here we come....

I'll cover you.

Oh my sleeping child, the world so wild
But you've built your own paradise.


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